2day i went to church, a friend's church.. i went to tat church for quite a few times, then on the way there, my friend asked me whether i was interested in helping them for catering sum food (there ll b sum tea time after the church ) Well, that time i was really neither interested or not interested, so i said sure to her... then, i was brought to see the pastor's wife..
N guess wat the pastor's wife asked? the 1st question she asked was,"R u a Christian?" Then i said no. n then wat she replied me bac was the most annoying thing i ever heard..."U r not a christian rite? so we cant let u do the job. Lets take an example, if I let u take part in the choir, ll u understand the meaning of the Christian song?(holly hell, luckily i m an alto n not tat good enuf for soprano) i was just trying to say tat u ll not tat faithful in singing that song"(well well well, wat the big deal 4 being sooooo faithful in catering food? i think she scare i ll put sum poison inside the food ) n then blahblahblahblahblah n then goes another blahblahbalhablhalabalhbalhab.... U know wat?! those who r so faithful in christian r so 'zhang qi'... the whole conversation she was so aggressive in emphasizing the reasons that Y I CANNOT HELP.... n that she kept mentioning that she s not being offense to me... n then wat i was offering to help is being the 1st step reaching the god.... what the hellllllll... holy shit...
n then at that very instant, i felt that my cheek was hot n my eyes were watering... it s not about tat humiliating thing, i juz really felt tat it s sooooooooo unfair... yeah, thx 4 her too, i ll not going to tat church EVER EVER EVER AGAIN... n when i told my fren abot tis, my fren said SHE WAS RIGHT!!!! OMG, wat the world s tis? I HAV TO BE A REAL CHRISTIAN THEN I ONLY CAN TAKE PART IN IT.... so from sum principle of my INDUCTION, do i hav to b a real CHRISTIAN then i only can talk to those christians??? so upset, never been so sad n hurt b4 since i came to perth.... Well, mayb i m juz being sensitive(but hey, every1 got limit rite? n juz now i hav been challenged but yea i still lose) wat the hell... it was kind hard to control ur tears from falling apart n ask them to stay in the position... when i reached home, i really burst out....
if no then no la, do u really hav to explain tat much? To be honest i feel so comfortable when i realize tat i m not a christian...
Sunday, August 10, 2008
What a DAMN BAD day
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Awwww Elainnnee~~~~ Come here I siak siak~~ keke... YEah some of the Christians are too Christian, u know wat i mean?? Jz don't take it too seriously abt tat~ They are jz too ego anyway~ but they don't mean to hurt u tho'... keke... jia you ah ELaine..
hahahahhaha....life happens....those "christian people" usually act a little bit LC de ba...U juz have to get over it...hehe
sometimes, being too holy is really nt a good thing though.
I m a christian myself, bt I kinda pissed off wif her & ur fren altitude.
as long as u r sincere to wat u doing, then it is okay.
juz ignore tos holy-brainded-yet-nt ppl.
(tat's y I quit from going to church XD)
well, honestly speaking, most of the truly holy Christians behave this way, people who dont know them well might think them as some kind of freak(that was what i first thought of my ex-church group leader)..and i kinda dislike this sort of attitude at first..like they're always asking ppl to church and get closer to God..they're pretty aggressive and they tend to overreact to things related to God..if u dont understand the true meaning of the "God story" or whatever Jesus stuff u might be freaked out n probably pissed off(i was kinda annoyed at first haha)..
but for those who have been exposed to God for so many years..it's hard for others to comprehend their feelings and passion to God..there really are some kind of connection between them and God..about the asking ppl to church thing..if ur a holy christian..and u bring ur friend closer to god and let them get to know Him better n finally become one of them(Christians)..they(Christians) will feel pretty proud and glad for ur faith in god..just like when i made my "confession prayer" to god when i was still in my ex-church..everyone felt so glad and thrilled about my confession n it's like sth worth celebrating =.= i wasnt too excited at the moment..not even now though wuakakaka..but i understand that they're just trying to save ppl from their sins..there's some sort of Jesus story within lol..they don't mean harsh actually..maybe they sound it a little too critical but that's how they spread the love of God or sth..传福音 they say..nothing harmful though..
so..don't take it too serious anyway..if u cant accept the way christians talk n act u probably should stop accepting n be urself..haha..everyone has their own choice of going for what religion anyway..really..the pastor's wife didn't mean to hurt ur feeling haha..just like what she kept saying..no offense no offense lol~
oh yea speaking of which one of my christian friend told me that she's moved by God almost everytime she goes to church..it's a christian thing i guess..gotta have faith in urself n god n u'll find the connection in between..that's what they always say..anyway..it seems like i'd written a whole bunch of crap here..haha..sorry..
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沒想到那些鬼佬還這麽“激進“與基督教呢~~~
但是，他們的方式的確太夠力了。不明白他們在想些什麽，但他們並沒有惡意的（希望是拉）。
加油，不要太過於在意吧！
chris: yerrrrrrrrr... dun worry la, after tis thing happened it makes me think a lot everytime.. i mean be more "quang hong da liang"... u know wat.. i think i hav phobia towards church now... when others mention abot church, i ll b like ~~
jasper: yeah, easy to say, hard to do...sumtimes words r mightier than sword...
renge: haha, i ll try la... it did make me down 4 a few days.. when i shared tis story wiv my other holy-christian fren, she said tat the pastor's wife shouldn't treat me like tat, wat my fren said really comfort me a lot.. so now i juz hav to make myself forgetful n 4give her in the sake of my fren n oso myself~~~~ n let the time does the trick.
yog: hmmm.. i can observe tat u gradually become 1 of them, but dun misunderstand tat i m critizing it... i know sumtimes we hav to see sumthing from the other point of view, so in tat case, i juz hav to think in her way rite? but, do u know y i go church? juz intentional go to find her n hav sum chit-chatting.. i m not blaming about wat hav happened, but it did make me to realize tat sumtimes i dun really hav to waste my time messing wiv sumbody n even put ur faith towards others.. instead i do respect all the things practised by those christians.. after all, the best thing s there s still sumbody stand by my side... i m juz happy to be myself...
kanasai: yo, not ang mo la~~~ the pastor's wife s chinese, not blaming her la... i m juz very confused since i never do sumthing wrong n y i hav to deserve her aggressive "talk".. it s juz sumthing happened so ... suddenly...out of control... like i made it happen... only 2 words to say lo,"bad luck.."
thx guys!!! it does make me feel better
dun cry o elaine... hug hug^^
haha. wat do u mean by luckily u r an alto and cant sing soprano? dun tell me they wan to invite u to singing in a choir? hahax. gotta b careful dear, ang mo cnt be trusted. they cn be quite fake sumtimes.
in my opinion, i would think dat all these religious thing are all craps. dat's why i m too lazy to go to temple nowadays. certain so-called holy ppl always use religion to bind believing ppl into doing wat they wan. it's not rite. so i would like to be an atheist from now on. haha.
crazytown: u know wat? those christians never ever see things from my side, they only will say they r right, wat they talk s only bcoz they r too affected by those connections wiv god n the worst thing s it s not their fault 4 saying tis becoz they r too holy!!! n i hav to pretend tat it is not an offense n accept wat they say s true.. u can see a classic example from one of the comments here... anyway, thx again 4 ur comfort, i ll learn to accept wat s wrong n right..i m big gal lo!! anyway all the best for ur A lvl ya^^ miss u...
o... u miss me elaine? hahax. now u know my importance ya? keke^^
am i the classic example? wuakakaka..i'm not that holy la..still on my way to being holy..lol..
as u know i went to the NLCC church today instead of the old one..it's an english serivce..mostly singaporeans..their songs r great..people are nice(not saying that those in old church not nice but ppl there r really great..probably mostly teenagers?) i observed sth..i saw ppl crying towards the end of worshiping..the whole thing was just..WOW..maybe u should try this out..or shouldnt..cos it's really amazing!! the pastor is way much funnier than the old one..
actually i was like u..or u guys before i came here..i thought religion was so full of shit.. existence of god? oh pls..but since i came here i've been influenced so much(er not really that much hahahaha)..though i'm still kinda disagree with the "addam n eve were the first humans" theory..but hey..there r billions of ppl(maybe millions..) in the whole world believing in the existence of god..there must be sth..if not how can so many ppl find their faiths towards god or whatsoever..but it's up to u whether ur willing to make commitment..actually i felt pretty happy after the service just now..haha..just my opinion..being urself is totally fine..
gosh..i started crapping again..forgive me for my long talk..lol..cant believe i said such thing..sounds pro wuakakaka..
wow..so long haven't come here and got this thing happened..
ermm...seems like the things have been settled, i guess? for so long the period is..
it just i do have the same feeling as you for the "too-holy" thinggie... its just way so weird..
i got many exmaples, real life..but as it already settled, might as well don mention it, right? it just, if there are things happen like this again, i think i will ****...(imagine it)
yogurt:
approaching the church/temple/surau is the way to reach the God
yeah, this quote is true.. but i do hope that you are not going to become as holy as those(including the people in my real life example, you want to know? mail me or msn me)
what i try to say is, i hope you are YongJK, not holy YongJK(if you got what i mean)
-peace out-
hey girl! It's really heart breaking to read a story like that and having u to go through something like that in aust. Seriously, that's not the way she should treat u, u have all the right to get mad at her.
Sadly, u're not the only person who have experienced something like that. Many ppl out there stopped / never wanted to go to church anymore because they think that CHURCH is only for HOLY people = PERFECT people. That's why some ppl feel pressurized, some even feel that it is so fake.
But I just want u to know that church is a place where people, with the same faith, come together and share life as a family. We're all sinners and we're all learning. what she did was inappropriate (like u said, without thinking about ur feelings) and I hope that this won't cause u to generalise Christians as a whole. Take some time and cool down all ur "qi" and give it another try (at a diff church of course) when u're ready k =)
Well, it's still ur choice and i respect every decision u make!
hehe..hope all that i said made sense!
u take care my dear!!
"the only way u can be certain that God is real is when u feel His presence in You"
yog: yeah, blahblahablahblah.....
watson: haha, i have already settled down lo... comforted by another christian friend... dun mention it? cant la, it ll soon be an exciting story that pissed me off so much throughout these 18 years, so i m gona share it wiv others in the future >< hehe, dun worry, i ll tell u more about it ah, very looking forward leh?!! thx anyway 4 supporting me^^
cfsam: yo, may i laugh? haha, wat u hav said s right... so powerful n convincing... i think u really learn a lot from ur course... anyway, thank you very much.. now i already let go that matter n if i ever wan to go to church again, see fate lo...."xun qi zi ran" if the god still wan me to go to church, he ll hav his arrangement right? haha, holy girl... take care lo><
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