long tym no see -^

It has been quite a long time for me to post something up here, so welcome me back again.. haha =) it feels weird to see someone around you growing up so fast. Time passes like rocket... it really waits for no man and tide.. but I do really hope that it waits for me since I'm a girl.. haha

Life is good. But it doesn't always like that. Now you're at the top of a hill, the next moment you may be at the bottom of a cliff. From what I learn to survive through this every-second-changing-world, i can only tell myself that self-healing is the only solution. Time changes, weather changes, things change, human changes, even friends change... but how come I am still the same old me? still the weak one, still hesitating and staying at the same place.. watching all the people passing and staring the unsure and curious me. Standing at the same point, hoping to stay in the past, not wiling and not having the gut to face the future with unknown variables. I will only be myself again if I keep thinking the past..

Under some strange situations and reactions that u aren't anticipated, it only startles you to go back to where you think you should belong and to rewind back to where u have done wrong. It makes me so sad to think of the stuff that is going out of control, out of my mind. But what can I do is helplessly stare up to the sky, plead for the sun to dry out my tears and ask for the wind to blow off my sadness. Sadness and happiness is only one word difference. Just like black and white which can't survive without the existence of the others. Only under the shadow we can find a beam of hope. Only experiencing what is suffering then we will understand what is enjoying.

Now I am in a grey zone, neither sad nor happy. But I truly believe that the next day when I wake up with a ray of sunlight shining on me, my smile will be reflected from the mirror again. =)